Forgive Me, Save Me

I pray that through You I may allow myself to lose control. Please give me the STRENGTH to trust in you all of my days. I don't know quite where to start for I have doubted your presence for so long. Time and time again you have brought people of Christ into my life and I have turned the other way, never seeking you. But today I am here. You have continued to seek me and today it is I who has completely chosen to come to you. Forgive me for my doubt, ridicule, and disloyalty. I was raised by your faith and values yet somewhere through the years I selfishly took credit for my personal capabilities . Submitting to a life of personal conquest and searching for happiness in people and possessions over the glory of God. I have become bitter at times, dissapointed and dissatisfied, self righteous and unaccountable. I pray that you forgive me for these ignorant acts and continue to show me your mercy and grace. I am very thankful and feel very blessed for those you have put along my path and those who I have yet to meet along my journey. Thank you for never giving up on your children.