Forgive

Thank you. Thank you for saying something that was difficult to say. Something you knew I wouldn't take well. Something that until this day, months later, I didn't understand. You were not trying to degrade me. You were not trying to hurt me. You were simply stating how you felt and today I understand. Today I can look past the hurt I felt, the anger, the disappointment. Today I realize that what you said needed to be said. If you hadn't thrown it in my face I probably would have missed this opportunity to take a deeper look at the life I'm living. I'm sorry I held resentment for so long. I'm sorry I was angry and cold. I'm sorry that I didn't forgive you even though I said I had. It hurt, I won't lie. It hurt like when your biggest secret, that which you'd never want another to know, is revealed. I didn't want to face it. I didn't face it. I covered it up with anger and resentment. I told myself you were heartless. I asked myself how could someone say such a thing? Who were you to say such a thing? But I understand now. You said it for me. You said it out of love. So thank you. Thank you for knocking the wind out of me. Thank you for making me take a second look at my life's purpose. For if I have no care for my own soul who will have care for me in time to come?