Today was a social awakening. Many deep, strong converstations with very different people. I love it. One apologized for always stirring a deep philisophical conversation but you know who you are and don't ever apologize for that. I for one learn so much through the words spoken. Surface level chatter is necessary no doubt but when you can break the barrier and truely hear someone and they feel comfortable to open up on a higher level, that is amazing. What is friendship if two people cannot be real with eachother? And to talk to people whose minds are open and honest... I couldn't ask for anything else. I know my mind is very much guided by those who I surround myself with, but I don't think this is necessarily a bad thing because I know in my heart I surround myself with good people. Very different people, but none the less pure and caring.
One enlightened me to the fact that I may have never let myself succumb to the fact that I do not have total control over everything that happens in life. Sometimes you have to accept that things are out of your physical control and you have to be okay with that. You have to be secure in the fact that alone we are not as strong as we may hope to be. It is at that moment that you let your faith in God, the universe, nature, whatever it is, guide you.
I want purpose. I want meaning beyond a career, beyond my next text message or email, beyond the money I have in the bank. These are the trivial things that sometimes feel like what life is about but are no where near what life could be. I know that the purpose is not selfish but is the fact of wanting it to feel complete a selfish desire?
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