Religion

I've been listening The Stirring podcasts for a while now and finally decided tonight to go and listen in person. It has always been a rocky subject for me but latley I've been thinking a lot about it. I usually do as the holidays approach and start to question everything I believe, thought I believed, don't believe or want to believe. I've been up and down with religion, pushing it away, pushing people away who only care, trying to find meaning and then ignoring it. And I'm tired of always wondering. It's not easy to believe in something you cannot see and it scares me. There's a lot live up to but lately I've been really trying to get a perspective on my life and my choices. I feel like I'm a good person, openminded, loving and caring but the meaning has always been something I've struggled with. For a long time I thought I was strong enough without faith, that I didn't really need it, that my life was fullfilling and complete. I assumed it was for people who needed something to live for beyond their friends and family and that if you were strong enough in your own convictions you didn't need it or him. But that seems to be all wrong now. I think those that find themselves in God are of the very strongest because they had the courage to reach out and let something in that is greater than themselves. They were able to admit that this was a journey they could not go at alone and then they used their story and experiences to inspire others. I guess I think why not just give it a chance? What does anyone have to lose? Christianity, if nothing else, opens up doors to live a better life and to become a better person. When questioning where we go when our life is over, why not believe? If in the end everything works out as planned then we're good to go and if it doesn't what did we lose? Nothing. Either way we'll know we lived a fulfilling life for the things that are the most important to us!